I had to go to a mirror and look at it. I couldn`t picture myself in my own head. I had no image beyond a stick figure. I wasn`t a mean person as a kid, or dumb, and something has to be said to justify excluding you.
Fun wouldn`t be the right word... it was the most difficult, challenging, physical, extraordinary stretch I`ve ever had to make, in all those wild regards.
Desperation is the perfume of the young actor. It`s so satisfying to have gotten rid of it. If you keep smelling it, it can drive you crazy. In this business a lot of people go nuts, go eccentric, even end up dead from it. Not my plan.