I`ve experienced a private doubt, something that I`ve kept deeply inside, and then eventually delivered a piece of work that people responded to with huge enthusiasm.
I would be terribly disappointed if anything would get in the way of my being cast in something, or if performances were canceled. It was a fix that I obviously needed.
I tend to arrive in the rehearsal process with very strongly developed ideas about what I want to do. But I don`t like those ideas to be things that are not subject to change, or subject to development, or subject to challenge.