I figured out, I guess, that the job just makes me happy if it`s not number one. So if it all works, great. If it doesn`t, I still go home, look at my kids, and I have a big smile on my face.
I experienced a lot, and achieved nearly everything I wanted. I can enjoy that today. Go to bed at nine in the evening, because my child wakes up around seven, without having the feeling that I missed or are missing something.