I sometimes think I`ve needed a bit of an arm around me in my career - which I`ve not always got from certain managers and coaches who didn`t understand me.
I get paranoid about people staring at me. Even now I don`t deal with people looking at me. I can`t do it sometimes. I can`t go out. I don`t know how to react when people stare.
I don`t want people losing respect for me as a player. I want to go out in every game and perform to the highest level. I have no retirement plans. I`ve had a lot of injuries but I want to continue playing.
I was a boy, suddenly treated like the men and expected to act like them.
