You live with the fear people might find out. Then you actually have the courage to tell people and they go, I don`t think you are gay. It`s enough to drive you crazy.
When I watched Ellen come out in `97, my jaw was on the floor. I thought, There are some people who break the doors down, hold them open, and some people who walk right through.
When I was about 16, I was crazy about this girl. I had a certain amount of money in the bank where I could put a downpayment on a rental, and I went to her with sunflowers.