I had to get rid of any idea of hell or any idea of the afterlife. That`s what held me, kept me down. So now I just have nothing but contempt for the institution of the church.
I had no accomplishments except surviving. But that isn`t enough in the community where I came from, because everybody was doing it. So I wasn`t prepared for America, where everybody is glowing with good teeth and good clothes and food.
I just have to proceed as usual. No matter what happens, nothing helps with the writing of the next book.
