I finally realized that yeah I did want to be an actor and it wasn`t out of habit, but I needed to grow up for myself and then kind of re-enter the industry with a sound understanding of what my sensibilities and my values are as a relatively formed human...
However, I`m at a very comfortable place in my career and celebrity, in that I don`t have to audition as extensively as I used to for roles but yet I`m not immediately recognizable.